I know a man who is tormented by his conscience. You can
look at his face and see the furrow between his eyebrows. His
troubled countenance holds the clue to what in his lifetime of
mistakes have done to his body and mind.
This man is an acquaintance who is on the peripheral edge of
my life. I have heard a varied multitude of stories concerning
his problems. I would like to hesitate but say, this man has used
the power given to him and blessings bestowed upon him for “bad.”
One of his stories has a crazy in love teenager finding the “hottest”
girl in high school to go after, taking her innocence and marrying
her while pregnant. He hurt the one he chased and chased after he
had two toddlers, sweet little girls, at home, by being unfaithful with
the woman across the street. A neighbor who dropped by when he
had just walked in the door, they were hurrying in the living room
to fulfill and quench their desires. Seconds later, dragging a car seat
with one toddler, holding the hand of the other one in comes his wife!
He unabashedly says to the “guys” he hangs with, joking,
“I can’t believe she didn’t see the woman’s clothes were all unbuttoned
and could not smell the sex.”
Not long after, choosing to go live in another state and hang out with
his sister, he left those two little girls behind. They were but a little
speck in his rear view mirror as he rolled away to Florida.
You have the power to love the ones you are blessed with, or you can use
that power and wield the swift sword of pain into their lives.
Children are not like old toys that need to be tossed out or replaced. But
this man went off and found someone who wanted to have a different
adventure, going to California. There he had three more little girls and
was trying hard to stay in this marriage. Or so he retells someone, a
Now, looking at the older man (aged 55) and knowing why his face shows
age and his body is a little rickety, I can get a small glimpse of the history.
If he wants to have a future filled with hope and forgiveness, he needs to
retrace his steps. He needs to find out the address and write a letter filled
with contrition. Asking his children in their thirties for forgiveness is going
to take every ounce of courage for him. Asking his grandchildren to go with
him and play, hang out or have a meal out may not be so difficult.
This is a fact, one I know after being around children all my life, either as
a babysitter, mother or teacher:
Children forgive and forget quickly.
They don’t hold grudges.
They love unconditionally.
They are such wonderful embodiments of God!
Which brings me to another area this man needs to work on,
he needs to get “right” with God.
I think he may be still “looking in all the wrong places” for love.
This is another area he needs to choose to straighten out. This
has come to my attention through the gossip mill but he has done
hurtful things by leaving more than his four wives, he has had
more than affairs, he has been misleading women about his status
on a dating site.
Those who continue doing hurtful things are repeating their history
and not learning a darn lesson in life! The face looks guilty and worn,
the smile seems to radiate happiness when there are pretty women
around. He can still attract them like bees to honeycomb. He has a
group of women at work held spellbound with his stories of famous
people in California and his amorous antics. Until he has something
seriously wrong happen to him, he can keep exchanging people like
parts, but we know people have hearts. These hearts can be broken
and children’s hearts can sometimes be more easily broken.
Let’s hope for his health, life and others he comes in contact with,
that he does the “right” thing. Make amends, start new habits, and
by asking for forgiveness the dark cloud across his life may lift. He
may find a beacon of light shining and leading him to a better place.
I heard an excellent song on the radio by Mumford and Sons! Have
you heard, “Roll Away Your Stone?” I will share some passages that
gave me goosebumps! It pertains to this man especially…
“Roll Away Your Stone”
Roll away your stone, I’ll roll away mine.
Don’t leave me alone at this time
For I am afraid of what I will discover inside.
“Cause you told me that I would find a hole
within the fragile substance of my soul.
And I have filled this void with things unreal
And all the while my character it steals.
Darkness is a harsh term, don’t you think?
And yet it dominates the things I see.
It seems that all my bridges have been burnt.
But you say that’s how this Grace thing works.
It’s not the long walk home that will change this heart
But the welcome I receive with every start…”
Please check out the rest of the lyrics or better yet, find it on Youtube
and blast it! This has a wild and lively beat so the lyrics need to be
read to really understand the depth and power of these lyrics written
by Edward J. M. Dwane, Marcus O. J. Mumford, Benjamin W. D. Lovett,
and Winston A. A. Marshall. (copyright Universal Music Publishing, Ltd.)